无奈..

想关心你有错吗?
想了解你有错吗?
为何你常常都敷衍我?
问你什么问题你都似乎不想回答..
真的关心你,想和你分担每个难题.
别说我还小,不懂事,其实我懂的!
长大了会更想与你解决问题,一起面对每个难关..
或许你不要我担心,不想我操心..
我好无奈..所以只能默默的支持你,永远爱你~~

Multi-colored Gladiator

My favorite gladiator , love it because it comes in multi-colored, not that type in black or white we used to see.. saw it while i was shopping with hsien yun n boo..hsien yun also bought oen pair but in different color~~

imaging wearing it with a simple dress or a pair of short pants..haha..should be very nice!!

开心。。快乐。。

好久好久没这么开心了，是可以轻轻松松的开心， 放纵自己！！
终于把所有的功课赶完了，连夜的赶，终于熬过来了。。
现在总算可以让自己休息休息，两三天吧！！ 过后又要为final拼了。
之前一段时间，总，心里头常常挂着“fyp”， 把它带在身边，有种无形的压力。它甚至霸占了我的睡眠时间，不让我睡得安！虽然累，但这是必经之路，一定要咬紧牙关的把它完成 =）
过程中，我看到你们毫不吝啬的提供帮助，帮我改‘slides’， 好开心！好开心有你们一起渡过大学生涯。开心自己能交到一班拿心出来交朋友的朋友。

我快乐因为：
和你们一起喝茶，八卦八卦。。
和你们去唱歌，最近爱上唱英文老歌。。
和你们吃午餐，虽然我时常睡不醒。。
和你们吃晚餐，虽然常常都不知道要去哪里吃。。
和你们打麻将，虽然有时为了几块钱吵了起来。。
和你们去旅行，虽然只去过几次。。
和你们去看电影，共同的爱好之一。。
和你们去逛物，好想去kl shopping 啦。。

接下来要有更多更都的outing，去魔力喝茶也很好呀！！
考完试后冲上槟城吃laksa， 炒粿条！

HapPy BiRtHdAy, 苹果妹

嘻嘻,虽然现在已经是19 号凌晨一点,但我还要透过我的部落向你说声:

生日快乐,苹果妹!!

Countdowning for presentation day 3..2..1..go!!

Feel very nervous for final year project presentation, 3 days to go, this coming Wed, i have to make a presentation for my project progress in this semester. Busy preparing for presentation and interim report lately, my mind was fully occupied by fyp, no mood to blog at all.

It has been 4 weeks since the last time i went back hometown, i miss my hometown, daddy, mummy and my comfortable bed. I do not have time to visit my brother in kl. I miss them deeply. After this presentation, i ll fly back to hometown. =) *excited * I want to have nice outing with my hometown friends too.

This semester is the most stressful semester i had ever had in my university life. What Alex said was not true, i cant fully enjoy this year because of FYP. FYP is haunting everyone of us but i believe i can go through it.. Whatever happens, i will face it toughly. Goodluck to yiing shuang and yee hwee in your presentation, gambade yea!!

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Speechless + depression = crying non-stop
What can i get in return of losing 'tons' of tears?
Nothing.
Something happened but i am not willing to face it, keep avoiding it, it comes closer and closer.
I feel helpless in handling it, wondering what i can do to make the situation better.
It paralyzed me!
This week is a damn busy week - assignment, midterm, fyp and homework.
They really stress me up and occupy my mind.
Something that depressed me is temporarily flew out of my mind and i will try my best to prevent them from attacking me again!
I wanna kick them out of my life!

B

Goodbye forever, our cute and adorable Blackie
You are so "black" that's why we named you Blackie
We used to call you blackie or xiao hei
We used to scold you when you are naughty
We used to beat you with clothes hanger when you really pissed us off
We used to teach you 'sit' and 'hand up' command
We will always remember those happy moments you brought
We really heard what you tried to tell us before your last breathe
And you would never know what's our feeling of losing you

Rest in peace, B!

Moody

9th July 2008
Wednesday, such a boring day
Dr.316 gave us a holiday this week
do not need to consult him and report my progress
Should be happy and celebrate for my "holiday"
However, I am moody and feeling lost

Into FyP

Final year, epsilon, time past too fast, it seems like four years gone after a wink of my eyes. In final year, i need more time to work for Fyp, time to play, time for me and time for him. I found out how dull working life is after chatting with ruling and friends who already into working life.

Start of the first day of this semester, everyone seems very busy with own fyp, searching title for fyp then finding a most suitable and helpful supervisor, register fyp, this and that... Queued up in the very early morning to get form for registration. The situation recollected me the moment we queuing to take our smart card, I just flashed on that moment we shared our jokes and laughing although we need to wait for hours.

Feel relieved after settle everything from choosing title to meet supervisor. I chose a very "bio" title and hope i had made a right choice. Actually we are confused by all the titles uploaded because apparently we have no idea what to do and where to start.

My condition now: still quite blur about what I am going to do, what i can do is to search for articles, read and understand it before consultation begins.

Amuleto by Crystal Jade

Spotted Amuleto in Mid Valley, a newly opened restaurant serving western food. Classy and romantic ambiance had attracted me to dine in with jun hao. Couples should check this out, suitable for couple to have dinner or have any celebration.

Drinks are normal, not able to take a shot of whole restaurant because only 2 table of customers that moment, waiters are more than customers. They kept watching us made us embarrassed to snap photo =p Food we ordered but i totally forgot their names hehe.They just slipped off my mind :S

Jun hao's spaghetti, mine is dunno what chicken :O Nice to see, nice to eat! The food deserved my high rating ********** 10 stars i gave them

Desaru ..Desaru..

Family trip trend recently, all about gathering and making fun together. A big family trip consists of 20 members and destination would be Desaru. I've never been there before and put high expectation on Desaru beach. Lalala, white sandy beach and crystal clear water( that's what i imagine) and I am eager to get there.

A shot of mummy and I before we started a four-hour long long journey. Do we look alike?

We stayed at Pulai Desaru Beach resort, it is facilitated with a variety of recreation activities such as swimmming pool for adult and children, table tennis, tennis court, pool and bar lounge.

Swimming Pool

Obviously, table tennis

Pool but preferable for kids, holes are big and small pool table.

Sea view rooms offer us scenic panorama of the beach.

However,I am totally disappointed with the beach, it was polluted by oil split and the water is dirty. All of us dare not to swim in the sea water. Stepping on some oil split while strolling along the beach was the consequence of not putting attention to the warining paper. sigh!!! Hard to get rid of it until my bro found solvent for me. Take this as a lesson~ Although the beach was not satisfying, it would be romantic if couple walk along the beach watching sunset =)

Nice view when dusk fall

Do.Re.Mi. Hurray, go swimming!!! Their innocent face and smile sweetened my mood!!

Spending night time by chit-chatting because those recreations are more suitable for kids, kind of boring during night time.

Next day after taking breakfast, photo-taking session before swimming.

He is so sick of self-obsession, ask me to snap photo of him pretending a bartender~ his reason: bartender is SMART!!!

We are bonded forever~~too bad daddy not joining us

I respect her most as she guides me in everything from big to titchy matter.

A huge rock becomes a popular place to take photo.

Day 3, we are leaving Desaru but kids are not willing to go back , they like to swim and play at the pool. They were in sadness mode along the way back home. For me, i think once is much more enough, i would not revisit Desaru unless i had to =) Still, i feel happy to be with my family and relatives because when i working next time, we would have less time to have gathering.

Last picture captured before leaving Pulai resort.

~~Fancy to it ~~

People who know me should know i love "mian fen gao" very much. It would be my first choice for lunch if there were "mian fen gao". We usually drive all the way to Batu Berendam for it. The mian fen gao sold at the little stall is very yummy. It is considered as palatable food for my meal, yet my mummy's home-made mian fen gao had beaten it down. The home-made soup not salty as outside one and it has strong ikan bilis taste, plus it is nutritious because no MSG added. I sprinkled some "fried onion" into it, it become the most delectable dinner i had.


A glance of alluring "mian fen gao". Various kind of ingredients~ "QQ" slices of "mian fen gao"

I 've got a satisfied dinner today. Thanks mummy!!

K.L Trip

I 've abandoned this place for some time because of hectic and exhausting final exam week. Exams suffocated me thus i need a relaxing holiday. We, six girls plus 3 macho man ( liang tek , jun hao and ah sak) will go for "well-planned" K.L trip. "Well-planned"---> hsien yun and i were planning what places to go in K.L during study time.

However, mahjong freak has ruined our plan as some of us cannot wake up in the morning and set out at the indicated time. Hence, 3 cars started journey at different time, jun and i was the last couple to reach there. =p

First destination was The curve and Ikea. Main purpose of getting there is because of Ikea's Sweeden Meatballs, those meatballs are impressive enough till my saliva nearly drop whenever think of them. One thing couldn't be forgotten is 'SHOPPING'. Sales everywhere, how to resist myself from this? I spent some on shopping yet remember my own budget. Dinner time-Fatty Crab at PJ, five of us with voracious appetite wolfed down 2.1kg crab. This receipt proves how big our appetite were, been too busy to eat till nobody volunteered to take photos of us.

Entertainment after dinner- Bangsar, Bistro Telawi Street (if not mistaken)

Drinks we ordered. I remembered the one i ordered- Slow breeze ( non alcoholic)

3 pretty women trying best to show their best smile, CHIAK!! camera had captured the most wonderful moments we had. Also, the finest happiness of the day~~

倒数。。

倒数两科，还有两科要考。。

哎哎哎！！

生物测量，工程与社会学

蛮难应付的两科

希望顺顺利利过关

加油加油！！

Super Tired Day

Feel happy though i am extremely tired now

Still want to voice out my feelings with both sleepy eyes

I had fulfilled promise i made to myself

Completed the task which i assigned to myself

I am satisfied because i dint waste precious time by sitting in front of computer doing nth

Feel pleasant but at the same time set myself new targets

Bear the responsibility to accomplish them

Hoping i could taste the victory as the return of striving hard and putting effort on them.

Nutella Cupcakes~~

Continue the previous post...

Just now went to supermarket to buy those ingredients needed. First time go supermarket alone and feel like i am a full time housewife who choosing household and ingredients for baking. Not bad huh! have potential to be a "GOOD" wife ^_^!!

Photo is the best evidence to show my hard work. I din't capture any picture during the whole process because my hands are dirty, but nvm the outcome is more important.

Baking process

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Here they are: Nutella cupcakes

Although their appearance are not very nice, i like the taste of nutella, not too sweet~~ Waiting for friends' comments. I hope my dear will like it too.

Surprise for Darling & Friends

I bake cakes and cookies but never bring them back for my friends and darling in malacca. This time i have a secret mission, i bake for them without their notice.

"Wow...so nice, i am so touching to see your lovely cupcakes ~~"I giggle quietly!!

Eherm!! I am imaging their happy and touched faces,haha!! Anyway, stop dreaming!! Wake up!!
Searching which types of cupcake i am going bake! nutella or cheesecake..or both? Ok, before baking session starts, let me finish my presentation slides first.

To be continued... in next post~

How unlucky i was!!!

Last friday night, went for supper at a foodcourt near jun hao's house. Jun hao ordered korean spicy mee, not nice at all because it was totally instant noodles which we can buy from supermarket.

The only thing i love was a lot vege inside the soup, then i ate those vege since jun hao is a carnivor. When i was going to finish it, i saw a circular thing in black color, OMG, it must be something nasty, then i looked at it carefully, it was a FLY!!! YOU- a pity but disgusting little thing, had totally ruined my mood that day. SIGH...wordless...

Luckily i dint get diarrhea afterthat, still had a good sleep that night. =)

Saturday--lovely saturday, we went Kajang to eat satay. Delicious satay really satisfied my appetite. Then, i ordered wat tan hor, it was quite nice. The sadest thing happened, again i found something i really dun wish to see inside the kuey tiao. MR. crocroach visited me.

AHhHHhHhhhHhhHhHh!!!

I really want to cry out loud~

WHY it happened twice in the period less than 24hours?

SoOoOoOoOo SAD!! Next time i will check my food before eating!!

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TiReD +_+

I just finished filling cv, never think that fill in cv would require that much effort, i spent 2
hours ++ on this, OMG!! Now my eyes are tired, feel dry. I really want to say out loud: I M
EXTREMELY TIRED!

Long time dint go for jogging, this evening went jogging, i ady exhausted after jog for 20 minutes, cant breathe properly. Too long time dint do exercise, suddenly feel my body is unhealthy and fragile. Scared~~ Promise to myself: jog every wednesday =)

~~New discovery~~

I had a new discovery and wanted to share here:


I captured this inside the toilet of my hometown bustation. I was shocked when saw air con inside the toilet. Actually it is quite common in kl becos many toilets in kl have air con inside. But one thing i not really understand is why they put air con inside? make ppl go to toilet feel cool and comfortable?? I would be happy if the bus station rennovate into an indoor bus station with air-con, that will make me comfortable while waiting for bus.

What's your opinion on this matter? do you think there is a need to put air con inside toilet which mayb will cause stench if it is not clean enough ? =)

Reminder

Today 21st arpil, 9days to go to step into a new month. I really dunno is my pocket money still enough for me to survivie until 30th of arpil. Everytime i remind myself to do financial planning, but somehow i fail to do so, every month i overspend. My pocket money should be enough for me to spend, but everytime when i overspend, i cannot think of where my money going to, spend it to nowhere. So, i tend to do a reminder here to remind me not to overspend and simply waste my money to nowhere.

DO NOT OVERSPEND, YOU POCKET MONEY IS NEARLY FINISH, OR ELSE YOU WILL DIE OF STARVING LATER!!!!

THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU SPEND!!!!SPEND IT AT THE RIGHT PLACE!!!

Weekend ^.^

Feel very happy whenever it comes to weekends because it means i had gone through peak and
busy hours and a pleasure weekeend is waiting for me. I can sleep late, go shopping, do my
favourite thing and spend time with my love one.

Too bad there is no wonderful weekends during these few weeks because i have to do assignments. Thousand tons of assignments awaiting me but procrastination keep me leave
them aside. Assignment due date is coming near and i start to scared of it, no more enjoyable
weekends, i need to do assignments during weekends. Well, i think i fully utilise this weekend as i
had written 2 blogs for ehm and complete the eng soc assignment, feel relieve but when think of
telemed and KNS, my head burst. Especially KNS, who can teach me in doing this??? One thing
that i feel happy is i can spend this weekend with my love one although i have these bothersome
assignments.

Are We Hot?

Yes, here we are. Although we had been same class and be together for almost 4 years, it is hard for me to find photos which had 6 of us inside. This is the one we captured during our tour to Genting. This is a lovely photos which everyone has sweet smile over the face, i guessed everyone did enjoy the trip very much =) Erm, if i were not "halfed", then this edited photo would be much more better hehe.

"This is another photo edited by Yiing Shuang"

Finally, 6 are in the photo-complete version. *giggle* We listen, laugh and share, everything we could~!!

Back Into My Blog

It has been a few months since i uploaded the last blog, and i m back into my blog now. well, now i have no idea wat i m going to write, anyway will upload new blog later =p arghh!!!assignments like mountain, can anyone tell me how could i start?? telemed and neural assignment can really make my brain burst. This is a busy semester with tough assignments. Anyhow, i know everything will be alright as "船到桥头自然直'. Is this kind of thought good or bad for my own future? i wonder. Suddenly i think of sth: if there is somebody ask me what's my speciality? I think think and think, i cant even give myself a good answer. Mayb my speciality is i can talk well because i m talkative. Theoretically, everyone has own speciality, and i m still searching for it which buried deep inside myself.

The Art of Letting Go

It's over. He's gone.

Why do we have to part while
the love is still there?
Why do we have to suffer?
Why do we have to cry when
somebody bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet
only to lose in the end?

There are questions left unanswered,
words left unsaid, letters left unread,
poems left undone, songs left unsung,
love left unexpressed,
promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship,
one of the hardest things to do
is saying goodbye and letting go.
It is as hard as breaking a crystal
because you'll never know when you
will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go,
feel not the pain of parting:
it is they who stay behind that suffer,
because they are left
with memories of a love
that was meant to be,
a love that was.

At the beginning and at the end
of a relationship,
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
Unfair as it may seem,
but that's the way love goes.
That's the drama, the bittersweet
and the risk of falling in love.
After all, nothing is constant but change.
Everything will eventually come to its end
without us knowing when,
without us knowing how,
without us even knowing why.
And we must forget not because we have to
but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come
not as a single spy but in batallion.
It seems that everywhere you go,
everything you do,
every song you hear,
every turn of your head,
every move of your body,
every beat of your heart,
every blink of your eye and every breath
you take always reminds you of him.
It's like a stab of a knife,
a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world
becomes depopulated
when only one person is missing.
Just imagine,
there are billion people on earth
and yet it seems you feel lonely
and empty without the other.

I don't know if it's worth calling an art,
but letting go entails
special skills sparkled
with a considerable space and time.
Time heals all wounds but it takes
a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part.
Not all love stories end with
"...and they live happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of
circumstances beyond our control.
We have to suffer if it would
mean happiness for others.
We have to cry to
temporarily let go of the pains.
Every beginning has its end
like every dawn has its dusk.
It's something we can't control,
something we had to live up.

It's over.
He's gone. But life has to go on.
Goodbye doesn't always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time
where questions will be answered,
words will be spoken,
letters will be read,
poems will be recited in the night,
songs will be sung in harmony,
love will be expressed in solitude and
promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.

by Consreal

GoodBye

I don't really want to say goodbye
I don't really want to leave you
But now I have to go away
Stay away from you forever

What we had was something special
Deep down from our hearts
But now I have to go away
And leave you from my heart

Ebony & Ivory Sesame Seed Cookies

Chinese new year is just around the corner and cookies is one of the thing that cannot be ignored during Chinese new year. Every year's cny, we will bake some cookies and give them to relatives. It's like an old tradition that people will give you something and you will give something to that people in return. Thus, i don't really eat those cookies that much. I try to find some new recipe online, i browsed through aunt Yochana's blog and found "Ebony and Ivory Sesame Seed Cookies", quite nice name she gave them. Then, i clicked the title and had a look on the recipe. Oh, i found the cookies contained a lot of black sesame. Without any hesitation, i printed out the recipe as i love black sesame stuff very much. If you guys out there are interested in this cookies, here's the link of the recipe.

http://auntyyochana.blogspot.com/2006/08/ebony-ivory-sesame-seed-cookies.html


This is the image of that cookies i grabbed from aunt Yochana. Those cookies are baked in a nice light brown color and they are all baked evenly.

I've tried out this cookies and i m going to upload the photo of my cookies.*Sob* *Sob*, those cookies are not as nice as aunty Yochana's.

Before send them into oven

Done!! They can be eaten right now!!
Although they don't have nice appearance, they taste good(self-exciting)~~ Check out aunty Yochana's blog, you can get more recipe of cookies, cakes and etc. Have a good try on them. =)

~*TART*~

Today, i woke up early in the morning, friends who close to me would give me a great applause because i used to sleep till the sun shine on my buttock especially on SUNDAY. I had breakfast with my family and we talked about egg tarts, thinking that there is quite a long time we didn't make tarts. So, we ended up making tarts at home for the whole afternoon. Now, you all can see the transformation of the plain flour, eggs, sugar and other ingredients into a yummy tart.

This is the batter after all ingredients are well combined.

Pastry pressed into molds, add in fillings for egg tart and they are ready to bake.

TIK,TOK,TIK,TOK.....................After 20 minutes..

Yeah, here are the fresh and hot egg tarts. Actually feel so happy when seeing them. *giggle*


Feel happy for the whole day because i am able to make those tarts though long time didn't make it. Besides, i feel happy spending time with my beloved mummy, she taught me a lot in bakings and i admire her outstanding baking skills.

Cherish you--we begin a book

i dun really remember when is the first time i met u
where we met and what we had done
i just remembered when we started our relationship and how it goes on
i m bad-tempered, not sympathizing and always have an argument with you on a small matter
u are kind, dote on me, supportive, being so understanding and really care of me
i apologize for my bad attitude and being so evil sometimes
i apologize for hurting u so deeply with unforgivable mistakes i had made
i hope we can make a story book from now on
we fill the pages with laughter, smiles and sometimes even tears
a splendid storybook filled of memories of you and i
i'll keep writing more and more good stories
so that it would never end
hoping one day when i look back on those pages
both of us are smiling for the good moments we had together.

Part Time kindergarten teacher

I started planning my holidays straight after exam finished. I planned to spend my first 2 weeks holidays with my mum to do baking together because both of us like baking and since CNY is coming soon, she wanted to bake cookies and shortbreads. However, after i had received a call from my cousin, i think i cant spend much time with her on baking. Here's the contents of the conversation:

Cousin sis : Hey, chui ling, when's ur holidays ya?

Me : My holidays start from 1/1 till 28/1, 3 weeks.

Cousin sis : Oh!! Okay, can u help me to teach at kindergarten for the 3 weeks of ur holiday? I m short of teacher now and when sch reopens, a lots of new students. Can u help me?

Me : Ok, sure.But i can only work for 2 weeks because i ll go for trip during the last week of holiday, is tat alright??

Cousin sis : Sure, it 's ok. Thanks for helping me ya.

My cousin sister and i have a very close and good relationship, so i ll help her whenever she needs help, same as when i need help too. Luckily, my mummy understands well, so she wont blame me for not helping her much in baking,hahas. 3rd of Jan, i started to work. I woke up at 6.30am as my colleague fetched me at 7am and we went for breakfast. Oh, i m so so tired because it's been quite a long time i never wake up such early. We reached kindergarten at 8am. I m teaching the small class. Small class means students in the age of 4. During the first day, a lot of new students cried like a baby when their parents went back. They felt so strange towards their new teacher and new environment. I had to calm them down patiently and try my best to stop them from crying. However, children are cute and innocent to me, the way they talk and act is truest though sometimes they are mischievous and playful. I've taken only a few photos of them because they cant sit properly when i said i want to take a photo from them. Once i had taken out my phone, they will come to me and wanted to play with my phone. I yelled at them" CANNOT, This is teacher's phone!!!" but they still trying to snatch my phone!Nowadays kids are too brave to go against adult.

This picture is not very clear because they keep moving when i said: 1,2,3 SMILE!!

I asked 3 of them to show "peace" but only one managed to do it well.

Close up photos. Cute and adorable students~~

not forget to introduce this twins brothers, i can't recognize who is the elder one and who is the younger Confusing**

There is no teaching in first week, teacher will accompany students playing in order to let them know their teacher well and adapt themselves to the new environment.

Playing session.Who can make the highest stack of blocks? You guys can see how earnest they were when they determined to do something.

Almost done in just a few minutes and the champion is :

DENG DENG DENG DENG

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Goh xin er, showing her masterpiece proudly.

First runner up-mao zhi, he is so shy during photo shooting session.He shared his joy with his new friend.

The second runner-up. you xuan. He is kinda sad cos he got the shortest but don give up ya, keep your hard work and one day you will achieve to the highest point.

"Dong!Dong!Dong!Dong" the clock struck 4 times, time to go back home!! Kids are extremely happy as they flew to their parents when saw them. I was extremely exhausted working for all day long, i miss my bed badly! Tomorrow is another day which i also have to wake up early yet i feel pleasant when i see their naive smile =)