Saturday, January 19, 2008

The Art of Letting Go

It's over. He's gone.

Why do we have to part while
the love is still there?
Why do we have to suffer?
Why do we have to cry when
somebody bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet
only to lose in the end?

There are questions left unanswered,
words left unsaid, letters left unread,
poems left undone, songs left unsung,
love left unexpressed,
promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship,
one of the hardest things to do
is saying goodbye and letting go.
It is as hard as breaking a crystal
because you'll never know when you
will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go,
feel not the pain of parting:
it is they who stay behind that suffer,
because they are left
with memories of a love
that was meant to be,
a love that was.

At the beginning and at the end
of a relationship,
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
Unfair as it may seem,
but that's the way love goes.
That's the drama, the bittersweet
and the risk of falling in love.
After all, nothing is constant but change.
Everything will eventually come to its end
without us knowing when,
without us knowing how,
without us even knowing why.
And we must forget not because we have to
but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come
not as a single spy but in batallion.
It seems that everywhere you go,
everything you do,
every song you hear,
every turn of your head,
every move of your body,
every beat of your heart,
every blink of your eye and every breath
you take always reminds you of him.
It's like a stab of a knife,
a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world
becomes depopulated
when only one person is missing.
Just imagine,
there are billion people on earth
and yet it seems you feel lonely
and empty without the other.

I don't know if it's worth calling an art,
but letting go entails
special skills sparkled
with a considerable space and time.
Time heals all wounds but it takes
a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part.
Not all love stories end with
"...and they live happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of
circumstances beyond our control.
We have to suffer if it would
mean happiness for others.
We have to cry to
temporarily let go of the pains.
Every beginning has its end
like every dawn has its dusk.
It's something we can't control,
something we had to live up.

It's over.
He's gone. But life has to go on.
Goodbye doesn't always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time
where questions will be answered,
words will be spoken,
letters will be read,
poems will be recited in the night,
songs will be sung in harmony,
love will be expressed in solitude and
promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.

by Consreal

GoodBye

I don't really want to say goodbye
I don't really want to leave you
But now I have to go away
Stay away from you forever

What we had was something special
Deep down from our hearts
But now I have to go away
And leave you from my heart

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Ebony & Ivory Sesame Seed Cookies

Chinese new year is just around the corner and cookies is one of the thing that cannot be ignored during Chinese new year. Every year's cny, we will bake some cookies and give them to relatives. It's like an old tradition that people will give you something and you will give something to that people in return. Thus, i don't really eat those cookies that much. I try to find some new recipe online, i browsed through aunt Yochana's blog and found "Ebony and Ivory Sesame Seed Cookies", quite nice name she gave them. Then, i clicked the title and had a look on the recipe. Oh, i found the cookies contained a lot of black sesame. Without any hesitation, i printed out the recipe as i love black sesame stuff very much. If you guys out there are interested in this cookies, here's the link of the recipe.

http://auntyyochana.blogspot.com/2006/08/ebony-ivory-sesame-seed-cookies.html


This is the image of that cookies i grabbed from aunt Yochana. Those cookies are baked in a nice light brown color and they are all baked evenly.

I've tried out this cookies and i m going to upload the photo of my cookies.*Sob* *Sob*, those cookies are not as nice as aunty Yochana's.

Before send them into oven


Done!! They can be eaten right now!!
Although they don't have nice appearance, they taste good(self-exciting)~~ Check out aunty Yochana's blog, you can get more recipe of cookies, cakes and etc. Have a good try on them. =)


Sunday, January 13, 2008

~*TART*~

Today, i woke up early in the morning, friends who close to me would give me a great applause because i used to sleep till the sun shine on my buttock especially on SUNDAY. I had breakfast with my family and we talked about egg tarts, thinking that there is quite a long time we didn't make tarts. So, we ended up making tarts at home for the whole afternoon. Now, you all can see the transformation of the plain flour, eggs, sugar and other ingredients into a yummy tart.

This is the batter after all ingredients are well combined.

Pastry pressed into molds, add in fillings for egg tart and they are ready to bake.

TIK,TOK,TIK,TOK.....................After 20 minutes..

Yeah, here are the fresh and hot egg tarts. Actually feel so happy when seeing them. *giggle*


Feel happy for the whole day because i am able to make those tarts though long time didn't make it. Besides, i feel happy spending time with my beloved mummy, she taught me a lot in bakings and i admire her outstanding baking skills.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Cherish you--we begin a book

i dun really remember when is the first time i met u
where we met and what we had done
i just remembered when we started our relationship and how it goes on
i m bad-tempered, not sympathizing and always have an argument with you on a small matter
u are kind, dote on me, supportive, being so understanding and really care of me
i apologize for my bad attitude and being so evil sometimes
i apologize for hurting u so deeply with unforgivable mistakes i had made
i hope we can make a story book from now on
we fill the pages with laughter, smiles and sometimes even tears
a splendid storybook filled of memories of you and i
i'll keep writing more and more good stories
so that it would never end
hoping one day when i look back on those pages
both of us are smiling for the good moments we had together.

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Part Time kindergarten teacher

I started planning my holidays straight after exam finished. I planned to spend my first 2 weeks holidays with my mum to do baking together because both of us like baking and since CNY is coming soon, she wanted to bake cookies and shortbreads. However, after i had received a call from my cousin, i think i cant spend much time with her on baking. Here's the contents of the conversation:

Cousin sis : Hey, chui ling, when's ur holidays ya?

Me : My holidays start from 1/1 till 28/1, 3 weeks.

Cousin sis : Oh!! Okay, can u help me to teach at kindergarten for the 3 weeks of ur holiday? I m short of teacher now and when sch reopens, a lots of new students. Can u help me?

Me : Ok, sure.But i can only work for 2 weeks because i ll go for trip during the last week of holiday, is tat alright??

Cousin sis : Sure, it 's ok. Thanks for helping me ya.

My cousin sister and i have a very close and good relationship, so i ll help her whenever she needs help, same as when i need help too. Luckily, my mummy understands well, so she wont blame me for not helping her much in baking,hahas. 3rd of Jan, i started to work. I woke up at 6.30am as my colleague fetched me at 7am and we went for breakfast. Oh, i m so so tired because it's been quite a long time i never wake up such early. We reached kindergarten at 8am. I m teaching the small class. Small class means students in the age of 4. During the first day, a lot of new students cried like a baby when their parents went back. They felt so strange towards their new teacher and new environment. I had to calm them down patiently and try my best to stop them from crying. However, children are cute and innocent to me, the way they talk and act is truest though sometimes they are mischievous and playful. I've taken only a few photos of them because they cant sit properly when i said i want to take a photo from them. Once i had taken out my phone, they will come to me and wanted to play with my phone. I yelled at them" CANNOT, This is teacher's phone!!!" but they still trying to snatch my phone!Nowadays kids are too brave to go against adult.

This picture is not very clear because they keep moving when i said: 1,2,3 SMILE!!

I asked 3 of them to show "peace" but only one managed to do it well.



Close up photos. Cute and adorable students~~


not forget to introduce this twins brothers, i can't recognize who is the elder one and who is the younger Confusing**

There is no teaching in first week, teacher will accompany students playing in order to let them know their teacher well and adapt themselves to the new environment.



Playing session.Who can make the highest stack of blocks? You guys can see how earnest they were when they determined to do something.



Almost done in just a few minutes and the champion is :

DENG DENG DENG DENG
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Goh xin er, showing her masterpiece proudly.

First runner up-mao zhi, he is so shy during photo shooting session.He shared his joy with his new friend.

The second runner-up. you xuan. He is kinda sad cos he got the shortest but don give up ya, keep your hard work and one day you will achieve to the highest point.


"Dong!Dong!Dong!Dong" the clock struck 4 times, time to go back home!! Kids are extremely happy as they flew to their parents when saw them. I was extremely exhausted working for all day long, i miss my bed badly! Tomorrow is another day which i also have to wake up early yet i feel pleasant when i see their naive smile =)

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

"Farewell 2007"

The end of year 2007, the beginning of year 2008. I had my final exam at 31/12/2007, how lucky i was because i dun hv to study alone in my room and wish myself: happY NeW yeaR! I still remembered last year my new year eve is totally runined by final exam. I was alone at home, sitting in front of the computer, doing the monotonous programming. This year, 2008, i m going to "grow up" because few months later i ll step into the age of 21st, become a Big Girl, and " Big Girls Don't Cry"!! I cant use " I m still 20, i m still young" as reason towards my crazy and stupid act. Big Girls should think rationally, could control their emotions. So, i've set my 2008 resolutions and here is the LisT:

i) to study harder and harder to improve my results,keep procastination away from ME!!
ii) shed pounds, so sad lar whenever look at my fat belly~~
iii) control my emotions in doing everything, dun wanna be so EmO.
iv) to improve my english, winks**
v) last but not least, COMPLETE Grade 3 of piano lessons in this year if i could lalala....[ i know i m too old to learn :( ]

New year, New life, New hope, we should look forward and strive hard to achieve what we want. I will always remind myself that results depends on how much effort U put. 所谓:一分耕耘,一分收获. I wanna wish all my friends luck in doing everything. GoodLucK My FrienDss!!